Got stains on my shirt

last night was a blur. i dont understand!!! i mean, i only had 1 bottle and a cup of punch.. and then all of a sudden!! all of a sudden.. i was seeing images and my world is turning around on me?! what the heck?! don't tell me, i can't handle some alcohol anymore..?! it's only been.. what? a year and a half since i havent drank.. well, i dont drink like drink just so people can say that im c0ol.. tss. i only drink socially or occasionaly. hmm. and now, last night? what happened?!!?! i seriously needed to go home.. good thing i wasnt driving.. ok. to make things clear.. i wasnt drunk! i was i guess.. tipsy? my head was really really hurting. i didnt vomit or anything.. anyways, here's what happened. sam went to my house and i gave her my "pasalubong" for her kid and herself. she loved it and that made me happy. and then we're off to aisa's condo. aisa's maid wasnt there so we waited at the lobby. aisa was in the salon getting her hair rebonded and then after that, she went to pick up joanne. basically.. there's just the 4 of ur girls! which really sucks! coz i know that the guys would be like.. what? 10 or more?? so anyways. we were there right and then sam and i spiked the punch.. too much gin i think.. so that's why it hit me immediately. so yea.. turns out.. pretty boring.. hehe.. naah i mean.. sam left at 12 coz her ex bf's cousin is gonna take her out.. and joanne has her bf.. so when they came, she was busy with him/them.. aisa was signalling me that she's still going somewhere and me? i dunno.. i wanna be home at 1 or something coz i have church at 7 the next day.. soo really it was a major dilemma and the plan was really fucked up! i mean, i've been texting my girlfriends about it and they were all like "im still not sure.. il text u back.." which they didnt! fuckers! hehe. sowee. and then, yea... that's basically it. oh sam and i took pics. to0 bad i cant show it here.. aww! jk. ill try. sad coz i only got to use my digicam with sam but with the others.. my cam fone. sowee. so when i left, aisa just said that she just wont go to the other thing that she was supposed to go.. coz it's her condo and the guys were still there. gosh, i feel hella bad! swear. i wont do it again!

anyways, now? i still feel dizzy and sleepy. aaaaaah. i wanna go to glorietta today and buy those pumps! but i dunno.. laziness is attacking me!!!

and oh yea, i just finished watching ABANDON.. and aaaaaaaaaah!!! CHARLIE HUNNAM is hot! i swear! i think i may have a new crush. and he's only liek 5 years older than me. so, u know.. PWEDE! ahaha. aaack. totally not gonna happen.

[if you cant see the images, dont worry, they're only three of them.. fine.. just click here and and here k fine.. last.. this one capisca? buon!]

When we meet the right person to love,
when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to,
that's not a choice.
That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there are a lot
of couples whoget together because of this) is not a choice.
That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.
When will you take that infatuation, that crush,
that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?
That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down
and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete
relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his/her
faults, that's not a chance.
That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter
what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there
who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate,
and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same,
that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, and attraction come to us
by chance.
But true love that lasts is truly a choice.
A choice that we make.

Regarding soulmates, there's a beautiful movie
quote that I believe is so true about this:
"Fate brings you together,
but it's still up to you to make it happen."

I believe that soulmates do exist, that there is
truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you
to make the choice if you're going to do something
about it or not.

We may meet our soulmates by chance, but loving
and staying with our soulmate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone
perfect to love,
BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person
perfectly. =)


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You In Love With Someone?


When you are together with that special someone,
you pretend to ignore that person.
But when that special someone is not around, you
might look around to find them.
At that moment, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always
makes you laugh,
your eyes and attention might go only to that
special someone.
Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to
have called you long back, to let you know of
their safe arrival,
your phone is quiet.
You are desperately waiting for the call!
At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-
mail from that special someone than other many
long e-mails,
you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase
all the messages in your answering machine because
of one message from that special someone,
you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you
would not hesitate to think of that special someone.
Then, you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone
is just a friend", but you realize that you can
not avoid that person's special attraction. At
that moment, you are in love.

While you are reading this page, if someone
appears in your mind,
then u are in love with that person.


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when you love someone how do you prove that
you love that person?

how can you make some one realize that you are
willing to do anything for him/her?

when you say i love you do you mean it when you
say it?

when you have fallen in love with someone how
can you fall out of love with that person?

how can you make the person understand what
you feel if the person is not talking to you?

MY OLD ONE IS
THIS!

MY NEW ONE IS
THIS!


IM KEEPING BOTH OF THEM.. EITHER WAY, THEY'RE ALL THE SAME. ALTHOUGH, I KINDA RECOMMEND THE SECOND ONE. why? well, take a look then.

WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH MY TABULAS? how come it won't show all my pics?! freak! fucker!! grrrrr!!! it's been weeks now.. the first time it went like this, i was like "oh maybe it's just one of those days..it's gonna come back" and then when i noticed that the picture quality is not coming back.. it's ticking me off!!! grr!!

i guess i need a new layout? maybe, but i dunno. i still feel that this layout is very suitable for me.

anyways, went to the mall today. 2 malls to be exact. bought the shoes i hella wanted back in the states.. and then i bought some earrings and then a blouse then a belt. i have a fashion icon. i swear. aside from paris hilton, and gwen stefani.. i am now adding ashlee simpson as one of my.. umm.. heroes. hehe. fashion heroes that is.

hella tired. ok, here;s the deal, i would definitely show u all the things i bought but then what's the use of the pic when this freaking tabulas wont show it! fuck! somebody please help me fix it!

the shoes would definitely kill a girl's feet. but hey! who said being pretty isnt painful? hehe. gotcha.

and yea, my hair definitely needs a lot more highlights and streaks!

johann texted me early in the morning. he asked if i had something to do for that day.. which i dont. so he asked me again if i wanna go out. and i said.. sure. lou, ben, johann and i were going out right. but then johann called me again and told me that he can't go. so it's c0ol.. lou, ben and i looked like a threesome. nyaahaha. jk we went to galleria.. i really dunno what the plan is.. but anything will do for me. so when we got there, lou told ben and i that he's just going to meet someone. so that leaves just the 2 of us. riiight. and to think that's the only time ben and i got introduced.. i mean that same day. but it turned out pretty fun! he's down to earth and funny! hehe! after 30 mins or so, lou was back. we just strolled around galleria. it was my first time there since i got back.. so they kinda toured me and a lot of changes happened. then we watched PRINCESS DIARIES 2! aaaaaaah! hahahahahaha! hey they shouldn't complain coz i paid for it! the tickets i mean! hehe! aaaaaaah! fuck! kitkat is right!!! lord nicholas is freaking hot!!!! kitkat, in case u dont know, he's real name is chris pine! aaaaaah!!! so perfectly hot! anyways, after an enormous amount of walking around the mall, we just sat down and chilled at auntie annes. the three of us just really talked and shared our experiences! it was really c0ol. and then, we decided to eat dinner at mr. choi ... [a chinese resto]. after some waitage to be called for a table.. johann finally showed up! it was pretty go0d! loved the fo0d. after that, we kinda walked around the mall again to kinda bring down the f0od. hehehe and then we're off to my house. at my house is where all it happened! hehe. they asked me questions about why girls are such like this and that. i jsut gave them some tentative answers.. like i know not all girls are the same on how the way i think but i pretty much gave them the possible and the general answers.. like what usually happens. i mean, they just kept on firing me such difficult questions but i know that i kinda know the answer i just can't explain it. seriously! and to think they were asking ME!!! ME!!! WITH NO EXPERIENCE AT ALL! so, u know. but i was touched coz they trusted me with it. u know? like they were really comfortable and i just appreciated the act. hehe. oh my. im really one of the boys. it's alright coz i also got some answers to questions that i really dunno what the answer is. anyways, until it's time to go. it was about 1am then. yup. i miss kitkat.